__15, and I really want to thank You. After what happened on Saturday and spending yesterday in a house full of rain clouds I didn't think I could make it today. I dreaded coming to trng even tho I was more than happy to leave the house.. Halfway through the 2k, I was ready to be satisfied with coming in second place after Ray but You carried me thru and we ended well. All I know is I'd harnessed the hurt and anger for the first half of the race and by 3/4 I was spent. Or sick of feeling angry. Whatever. And then You picked me up from where I laid, battered and worn, settled me on Your shoulders, and carried me through to the last 2 buoys. You alone understand. You alone.

I was thinking maybe it's because I'd learnt to compartmentalise my life. What's screwed up in section A can't spread its negative vibes to section B anymore 'cause I'd built a thick wall between them. But now I know it's not that, it's because You are faithful and You alone keep Your promises.

I will be patient. And I will not talk back. I will not let the hurt get the better of me. Because I'd promised You I'd be obedient, and since You're keeping Your promises, it's only fair I keep my end of it too.

Maureen, "You know that things aren't going well for you when you can't even tell people the simplest fact about your life, just because they'll presume you're asking them to feel sorry for you. I suppose it's why you feel so far away from everybody in the end; anything you can think of to tell them just ends up making them feel terrible."

A Long Way Down Nick Hornby

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go to, then; your considerate stone.
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